The War Is Over You Lost 24x36 What am I going to

What am I going to do

I never even knew what that was let alone how to consider it something to work towards

listening to Janet Jackson Rhythm Nation in my Discman

credit reports feel like blood tests or dental appointments

Sometimes I felt the writing in my body

The War Is Over You Lost 24x36 What am I going toMy very first substance abuse counselor had a painting in her office that I would always stare into as I tried to place all of the traumas of my life into a chronological order out loud. I didnt like glancing over at her, as she had this habit of looking directly into my eyes that made me uncomfortable. I still remember with perfect clarity the large gold framed painting of the forest, all in blushes and contrasting gold and pink. I felt really safe